Hi !!! I am Mandy

I'm 16 and 1/2; I've been in a foster home since January 1999. I was taken from my parents house at that time...I was raised in a satanic cult until then. I'm a third generation cult member, but now i get as far away from it as i can. I've been diagnosed with DID/MPD. Thats when you have several alters/personalitys living inside 1 body. I'm also bipolar (manic depressive) ptsd, post traumatic shock disorder..It's all a result of the abuse I've been through, but I feel very bad for all the kids that are still in an abusive situation.. I feel fortunate that someone took interest enough to see things were'nt ok and took me to a doc who called children services.. I want to make a difference in this horrific world. I want to help thats why I created the site called ,abused kids with problems ( AKWP). a link for it is to your right.

I wrote this poem called
"silent memory"
it is about
the memories from past
abuse that resurfaces and
coping with and the pain
that goes along with it.

I feel the wind hurling across my face
The glass window broken, tearing down the lace
A memory has struck, with no warning to me
The Silent enemy has struck unmercifully

The Silent enemy can be so deceiving too
What if I could hear it comin.. the what would i do?

But I'm in a world of silence and of fear
Danger lurches, but I don't know it is near

I'm crying for help now, the silent memory comes to roar
The pain crashing through the walls of my minds door

The Silent memory has yielded terror and maim
Thankfully, I am safe, and i can feel my pain

How I look ahead when there will be a time
No more memories, a promise of no more crime

The others tells of such a wonderful hope
So with the Silent memory, I now try to cope

ty for reading..
mandy